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When I signed up for all day Tuesday/Thursday classes I imagined Monday, Wednesday, and Friday to be days just waiting to be filled with adventures, naps, a little bit of homework ( to be done at a leisurely pace), open windows, pleasure reading, possibly a hammock, a delicious lunch prepared from one of my new cookbooks, roadtrips, sleeping in, games of tennis, long runs, spontaneous get togethers, antique shopping and thrift store hunting, painting, games of pick up soccer, laying out with the girls...etc.

And those were just the plans for early Fall....As the months get colder I envisioned drinking hot chocolate while reading the bible, snuggling with my best friends while watching movies, trips to ramsey to escape the cold, 4 day weekend trips to SharpTop Cove and Windy Gap....The list goes on and on...unfortunately...

My Monday, Wednesday, Fridays are just as slammed packed as Tuesdays and Thursdays....I'm still up before 7 and busy until 4. Every day of the week...except for Friday mornings....I can sleep into ten at the latest and it has become the most treasured morning of my week.

How and Why do we always do this to ourselves? All of us do it. Sometimes, I think we're slightly afraid of too much free time. I know I am. I'm afraid of being unproductive, or getting bored, or being idle. I don't like those feelings....I usually trade them in for being slightly sleep deprived, late to bed and early to rise, and constantly moving all the hours inbetween then.

Sometimes, I wish I'd just stop and ask myself exactly what purpose I'm serving. Most days I have some sort of an answer ready. I think I know why I do the things I do and why I love them and what wakes me up in the morning...but there are certainly hours that could be better spent.